So tell me why we're talking when we dance so good...

Tell me why we're talking when we dance so good

Eating each other alive like in a sardine tin

Still gives me a smile

dropped off

And you know I can't stay but you wish I would

But why

Seemed awkwardly romantic that the song was played as you reached for them

Sometimes I wonder how you stay so sad when you're so beautiful

I cried

Something even I do not understand

And it will come up to no good

Again

It kills me

weak... replacement... evil... silly... selfish... prickly... failing... worthless... distorted... strange... unintelligible... ... ...
living in her own world...
...



I'm sorry... would it be better to vanish completely??!
I guess... I'm so sorry for being here...

Something stupid x]

Check! ^_____________^

mmmhhhh...........

neither the incentive to stay awake nor to fall asleep..

the expression °being caught between the devil and the deep blue sea° describes it pretty well.

confusing o___O

good night to everyone else

Sometimes...

... I wish something bad would happen. Just to disappear completely.

... or at least, everyone around me should just forget they'd ever met me and live like I'd never existed.

Just fading out of everyone's life.

Beautiful, peaceful, calming thought.

Just sometimes...

i wish you would sing to me

http://vimeo.com/2947051

thoughts

the house is empty. just me and the cuddly pets.

I should make some tea. water some plants. and maybe tidy up my room.

listening to music and dancing right now.

when there's no one, I can be myself. be dreamy, be silent, be loud, be sexy...

nobody watches, but you imagine some, who could watch you, who you want to be watched by.. imagine their reactions, their thoughts.

it makes me so aware of who I am. it enhances my femininity. I love that..

it's the best feeling a woman can have, when she feels feminine and lovely.

and never forget to eat some chocolate!

lonesome curlicue leaves some feminine greetings ^.^

huihuihui

It has really been a long time since the last entry and it happened soooo much! Had no time and principally no passion for writing some entries.. yeah it's startling, that there wasn't any time I wished to acquaint my thousands of fans and of course the hole world about my well-being!! But yeah that's just.... the truth.

But now *chinesegongsound* I'm done with school and got my abitur.. finally :]! So now I am applying to a lot of universities to hopefully study psychology in October.. Haven't send all the applications yet :S..

But there's no time o.o... that's so confusing. I am done with school and got no time??? O.O What the hell?!!...

I'm tired.. I've so many things to get done... I thought it would be a really relaxed time after the abitur, but there's still so much to do and I'm working till afternoon to save some money for my studies, so there's just little time of the day for these things! The job is quite fine... but heavy^^.. I'm going to be a Hulk after the two months :D

It's strange.. so many new people, new places, new dreams... and the contact to the others you nearly saw every day lessens... The people I love are now further afar... I'll have to get used to it.. although it's strange... The familiar world dies slowly and another one rises.. Time is fading and there is nothing to do.. mh..

Thoughts over thoughts^.^ as always from little curlicue

Just wanted to give you, anonymous and imaginary readers :D, a little insight in my little, unimportant life full of hope and wonders xD (probably it's just for me, in order to chronicle my life and remember moments, but most probably it's just the pleasure of writing which grasped me^^)

To put it in a nutshell, life's changing now and there's a lot to learn...

Oh look, I found my passion for writing again^.^ maybe there'll be more to read in the next days, weeks, months.. let's see.. you know.. phases... and so on ;]

greetings from tired, but hopeful curlicue <3

Are you fond of walking?

let's see into the mirror of walking

find a new lace in your way

as conditions change

you have to choose

have to follow either your heart or your conscience

say me which lace I should lose

can't hold them all together

but it's merely a matter of time

so change in the storm of it

but never let it weigh you down

so say... are you fond of walking?

in the end

in the end I was standing there alone

leaning against the banister

watching the moon, now waning

it's cloudy, so the shimmering is dulled

tears rolling over my cheek

although I promised not to cry

I just can't hold them back

as emotions overwhelmed me

your letter between my fingers

only ink and paper

but your words mean so much to me

I miss you dreadfully

Hola!

mexico is beautiful

didn't even think it is so various and manifold

a pity, that I can't really communicate with the locals



interesting country, interesting nature, interesting people



greetings from curlicue in mexico ^__^

dream-like

see that girl, walking through the forest
looking so strange and shimmering
doesn't really belong in this place
lift your eyes to the sun
dazzling you and light on your heart
the girl doesn't walk fast
she's got time
she is the time
carrying a flower and in the other hand
in the palm, like a gutter
there's water, caressing
patiently waiting, curling
so clear and deep
you look into it and see everytime something different
the flower, watching what surrounds her
is cautious and fears to be threatened and harmed
but in the end
you can watch the sunflower grow

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sunflowers.

lacerated

it is eating me up
this inner conflict
broken in two pieces

the confusion of two feelings
deaden my mind
the struggle inside my body
don't seem to end

it'll be refused
the fine sense of happiness
slain by feelings of blame, hatred, anxiety

i'm unable to cope with it
someone patch me up
this inner conflict
it is eating me up

drowning...

in thoughts...

or just tears lulling me to sleep

for a good friend

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you'd always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something
Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

Kate Nash, "Nicest Thing"

sexy morning

lingerie, corsett and powdering gown

back to former times <3

Morning by Frank O'Hara

I've got to tell you
how I love you always
I think of it on grey
mornings with death

in my mouth the tea
is never hot enough
then and the cigarette
dry the maroon robe

chills me I need you
and look out the window
at the noiseless snow

nostalgic curlicue blows kisses and love

lights

confused and out of mind

when things are disturbed, you ask yourself when they started to be so...

then you remember they always were..

no cause for concern.





seems like a nice quotation:

"I don’t love you I'm just passing the time
You could love me if I knew how to lie
But who could love me?
I am out of my mind
Throwing a line out to sea
To see if I can catch a dream"

Panic! at the Disco "She had the world"