dance

just dance this shit out of your soul!

murky.

what's wrong with me lately?
why are my feelings fucking me up so badly?
i'd really like to swallow a pill, that turns off emotions...
cause they're lying
they aren't emotions
they're just reactions of the body to survive or just feel good...
but i don't feel good
i'm kinda pissed off
it's a cruel state, when you can't trust yourself
and a crueler state to have to think all the time about it...
don't want anymore

i'm going to sleep and welcome the next day called asshole

curlicue

it feels good.. :]

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it's all about phases..

it's all about phases.. the whole life... bad phases, good phases.. they come and go... one can't change.. sometimes i would love to keep some phase forever and sometimes i fear i could struck in some phase forever... but me changes...

"just live your life", says the little heart...
"it isn't that easy", says the little sanity........ yes, it isn't...

sometimes i feel like wanting to rip out this little heart full of insecurity and smash this overworked brain into pieces, so it won't ever think again..
please, help me out of this labyrinth of thoughts... i hope it is just a phase, so it'll come better times.. but i can't see the ending... just these grey hedges, i'm wandering about... lead me out of this.. i can't walk anymore..

i lost the thread...
i should stop telling some confusing thoughts, anyway.. who matters? you're alone in this world, it's just you and your thoughts... but i know this isn't really true.. maybe in one way but not in the other one... like always, this little war between the two.. silly heart... silly brain... making me become insane...
please, retrieve this little straying heart and this confused sanity, i don't want to struck any longer in this phase..

just love you and rely on you.. cause you say it'll come better times..

"A time for everything
1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: 2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, 3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, 5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, 6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, 7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, 8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace. 9 What do workers gain from their toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no-one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live."
(ecclesiastes 3)

<3 curlicue --> in thoughts.. like always