murky.

what's wrong with me lately?
why are my feelings fucking me up so badly?
i'd really like to swallow a pill, that turns off emotions...
cause they're lying
they aren't emotions
they're just reactions of the body to survive or just feel good...
but i don't feel good
i'm kinda pissed off
it's a cruel state, when you can't trust yourself
and a crueler state to have to think all the time about it...
don't want anymore

i'm going to sleep and welcome the next day called asshole

curlicue